The phone keeps ringing and people are dropping in to make sure i am okay. I am okay. It’s like another job trying to make sure I’ve spoken to every necessary. Each time I speak, my stomach churns and I cry at certain points of my story. This is now how I had imagined my…… Continue reading Day three, I’m okay, what about you?
This would be fun if it wasn’t so awful. My cousin has come from her home seven hours drive away to be with me. She got in her car as soon as T spoke to her. It took her all day to get here, with her heart in her mouth and post Christmas weariness. She is my cousin, but…… Continue reading Suicide summer, day two
I visit you in the hospital. I’m scared but want to see you, want you to know that I’m still here, still your wife, still in love with you. I want you to know that I’m here, despite the fact that you tried to kill yourself and told me it was a done deal, you…… Continue reading Suicide summer, day one
They call me at 6.00am to tell me he’s been admitted to the Psychiatric ward. I am so relieved, yet terrified at the same time. Jen and I had gone home at 4.30am and I’d fallen asleep for an hour or so and then woke in fright when the phone rang. “Bloody men!” Jen said when…… Continue reading Merry Christmas everyone , 2013
Dear Bootcamp, I have a confession to make. I got bored with you and didn’t know what to say. I tried to get back to you, but other things got in the way. You kept looking at me from the corner of my screen and I just avoided you. I didn’t know what to say.…… Continue reading Can we build a bridge and get over it?
So my body bootcamp regime has ended for a while but has served it purpose. I’ve been overseas for a family wedding and felt svelt (in my own little head). Before THE WEDDING Mr Lotus and I took a side trip to France, time out from our otherwise hectic life. Ten glorious days alone, together,…… Continue reading Bootcamp for the brain, Cognac brain exercises
The Lotus Shoe 